Why Did I Want to Pray Again?
Religious Trauma Janice Selbie Religious Trauma Janice Selbie

Why Did I Want to Pray Again?

Recently, I got very sick.

Not the kind of sick where you stay home from work and want your mom to bring you chicken soup. I mean really sick. The kind of sick where your body stops negotiating and simply announces, “We are shutting this operation down temporarily.”

For days, I could barely function. I needed a wheelchair to get to and from urgent care, where I received IV saline infusions every day because my body was struggling to stay hydrated. It was the sickest I had been since 1984, when I was hospitalized with bronchial pneumonia.

At one point, languishing in urgent care feeling weak, shaky, and miserable, something surprising happened:

I wanted to pray. Not just once; many times.

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Staying Grounded Around Religious Family
Religious Trauma Janice Selbie Religious Trauma Janice Selbie

Staying Grounded Around Religious Family

Welcome to Easter, the annual holiday with the most confusing branding. Is it about resurrection, chocolate, or a rabbit running an egg distribution scheme? Somehow, “He is risen” and “check behind the couch for jellybeans” coexist without anyone questioning the plot. It’s a holiday that offers very little logical consistency yet demands a great deal of emotional participation. For those with religious trauma, it can feel less like a celebration and more...

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How Atheists Mourn: Grief Without Belief in the Supernatural
Religious Trauma Janice Selbie Religious Trauma Janice Selbie

How Atheists Mourn: Grief Without Belief in the Supernatural

Grief does not require belief in the supernatural. The recent tragedy in Tumbler Ridge, BC, has shaken many of us. I have loved ones impacted by this loss, and like so many of you, I have felt that familiar drop in the stomach that comes when something unthinkable happens. In the days that followed, I recorded a reel with a simple message: Atheists mourn. We mourn deeply, fully, and fiercely. Grief is not owned by religion. It is owned by love. Yet when...

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AI Psychosis, Religion, and the Hidden Grief of Belief Collapse
Religious Trauma Janice Selbie Religious Trauma Janice Selbie

AI Psychosis, Religion, and the Hidden Grief of Belief Collapse

When Belief Feels Like Safety. As a clinical counsellor specializing in Religious Trauma Syndrome, I have worked for years with individuals recovering from high-control belief systems. Many describe the same emotional arc: immersion that feels safe, followed by relational disconnection, and later a painful realization marked by grief, shame, and loss of trust in one’s own judgment. Seeing similar patterns show up in AI-based beliefs has felt clinically...

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When Anger Arrives Late: What It Means and Why It Matters
Religious Trauma Janice Selbie Religious Trauma Janice Selbie

When Anger Arrives Late: What It Means and Why It Matters

For many people recovering from religious trauma or authoritarian upbringings, anger does not arrive on time. It shows up late. Sometimes decades late. This can be confusing, frightening, or even shame-inducing, especially for those who were taught that anger was dangerous, sinful, or morally suspect. But late-arriving anger is not a failure of healing. On the contrary, it is often a sign that healing has begun. Late-arriving anger often reflects increased...

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Who Decides What God Wants? Equity and Religious Power
Religious Trauma Janice Selbie Religious Trauma Janice Selbie

Who Decides What God Wants? Equity and Religious Power

Before talking about religion and fairness, it helps to clarify an important distinction. Equality means treating everyone the same, regardless of circumstances or starting point. Equity, by contrast, recognizes that people begin with different levels of power, access, and protection, and that fairness often requires responding differently to different needs. Equality asks whether the rules are identical. Equity asks whether the outcomes are just...

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From Anti-Choice to Pro-Reproductive Sovereignty
Religious Trauma Janice Selbie Religious Trauma Janice Selbie

From Anti-Choice to Pro-Reproductive Sovereignty

As a Christian woman, I considered myself 100% “PRO-LIFE.” I went so far as to protest abortions being offered at the local hospital where I worked and felt proud to be standing on the side of righteousness with my young teen daughter and other members of her youth group, condemning the “slaughter of the innocents.” Coming from a privileged position as a married Caucasian Christian woman, I rejected...

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